February 13, 2008
Jealousy I had the amazing luck today...of being amazingly jealous for no good reason. Do you notice that if you somehow got jealous, you say the most weirdest or stupidest things and make a total fool of yourself? Yup, that happened to me. And its not at all a very nice feeling.

Its like you can't keep yourself still and your brain is going on autopilot to think of things so that you can catch even the most tiniest of attention. All sorts of weird schemes will come up so that you can rightly justify the need to be jealous and you'll act upon those schemes getting little or no results at all.

So there I was, talking away uncontrollably, doing all sorts of stunts....just to get some attention!! This is ridiculous not to mention embarrasing. I'mma cry!! Sob!
haysia summer 2006